It's Harder Than I Thought,

this whole, keep up with the blog thing. I have to keep in mind that instead of rushing to the closest paper and pen, I do have the wonderful internet at my fingertips. I also have to try and convince myself on a daily basis that I was born into a technological era. 

A personal belief I have is that life could go perfectly fine without the high end mechanics we have today. Hearing teens my age say "I don't know what I would do without my cell phone," really bugs me. I hate to carry my phone with me wherever it's not needed. Granted, I get my head bitten off when i leave a text unread or don't respond immediately but hey, I don't need to be contacted 24/7 and every minute of every hour. If I wanted that, I would move in with you. 

Anyway, I'm trying to become one with the internet. This is a perk I am happy to take part of. I love to write and typing whatever it is that I'd like to write makes my hands a little bit more appreciative. :)

Well I'm at the stage in a situation I am currently in where I start to worry about everything. It's almost like  disease that I get rid of when there is no, we'll call it a "substance", in my life. When I do have the "substance" and everything is running as smoothly as it possibly could, my mind goes into over drive. I over think every and any detail of every and any situation, I second guess any choices I am thinking of making (which is not like me in the slightest) and then it all goes down hill from there. I like to call it over obsessive worry-wart syndrome. (OOWWS)* In other words, it creates injuries. Mostly personal/ emotional problems all while driving me crazy at the same time. 

There is no known cure for this ridiculous illness. Though it is heard that helpful advice and shoulders to lean on of friends lessens the intensity of any brain draining, heart hurting, or mind aching side effects of this illness.

That is all I have to say for now. TTFN

*yes. OOWWS is a made up illness, that i JUST came up with while writing this entry. 

Just One of Those Things.

Has anything really good happened to you? Everything is going great and then one day you find out that everything in your life could all change? Well I'll let you in on a little secret, it's not a good feeling in the slightest. Right now all I can think is that I hope that the good that I acquired will stay constant through all the bad I will possibly have to handle. Something tells me that it will be like my own little escape from it all...

What is this good? The question is WHO is this good. Yes people, it's a who. A who that somehow knows exactly what to say. Maybe because he's been through similar things before. Or maybe he never had the luxury of having what I've had my entire life. He makes me look at the bigger picture instead of the tiny corner of the picture that I've been focusing too hard on.

I have been looking at the situation like this:

If you take one piece from from 100 different puzzles and try to shove them all together to make a 100 piece puzzle it won't work very well. In this case, every piece is better a part from each other. Is that what some families are like? I'd like to find out. Because right now I'm seeing too many different pieces in this puzzle that are trying ever so desperately to be a beautiful and well put together puzzle. Unfortunately, something isn't right.

Luckily for me, I have a good on m side as well to help me keep my mind in the positive things in my life. Him included.

Well people of the interweb, that is all for today.